September remembers too much...

Lately I've been feeling unwell

 It's like I'm under a spell.

Salty seas pour from my eyes

So many tears it makes my head hurt. 

Its hard to remain lit, the light just gets dim.

At the worst points I'm completely in the dark, no light glows within.

Lately I just want to sleep, permanently.

Take away my consciousness, let me rest 
please, beautifully.

My heart still beats, and I still breathe.

My body can still do most things.

But all of this, if not planar, is painful you see.

'Cause my heart pangs as much as it beats.

My eyes tingle as much as I blink.

The more I try to climb out of this hole,
 the more dirt just falls back on me,
 til it blinds me, and its all I can see. 

'Til it buries me alive, and I'm struggling to breathe.

But everyone else seems to respire just fine around me.. 

I walk a crooked line. 

My mind skips along with my feet. 

Zoning in and out of fantasies, walk around like a zombie

reality is too disappointing to have any clarity.

Bombs go off in my head from the war that goes on inside.

Fogging up my eyes. Clogging up my mind. 

When will I get mine. I'm here still.

My heart still beats, and I still breathe. 

I still feel, unfortunately. Because all of this, if not planar, 

is painful you see.  

Will there come a time of saving me?